Million Megs of Porn

I had sex with my wife for the first time in 2-1/2 years last night. Not straight intercourse, just oral. Basically we were laying in bed watching TV and she decided she wanted to get something started. I didn't want to but I knew there would be big repercussions if I rejected her once again. So I went along with it.

To be honest it really made me feel gross. I just am not comfortable with her sexually, not at all any more. My brain was going a mile a minute trying to call up something that turned me on, and I finally settled on this one part of a movie I have of Bridget Powerz, aka Bridget the Midget. She's a dwarf and a now ex-porn star. She doesn't have the usual facial features of a dwarf - the wideset eyes, the bulging forehead, the broad nose, etc. She has the face of an absolute angel, a truly classic beauty. Carve it in white marble or onyx and it would be another Venus de Milo. But then, the same could be said about so many women's faces.

After my wife got off I went downstairs to the computer and watched the scene I had been imagining. I am under the impression Bridget lives either locally or in Florida now, not sure which. I keep wondering what she does for money if she's not in porn any more. Does she still strip? Does she turn tricks? Does she get ongoing money from being in a couple of major motion pictures (S.W.A.T. and a couple others)? What's she like? Could I meet her and become friends and get some casual sex from her? Is she all diseased up?

I did my award-deserving internet research and got some info on her, and on the guy who runs her website. As long as I was in there I grabbed all the pictures of her that were in his private folder on his hard drive. Oops! Thank-youuuuuuu! I got addresses, phone numbers, what other things he's had his hands in, etc. I could befriend this guy, then get to her, through him.

This is how my mind works. Fuck.

Sometimes I use my powers and then act on these things, like I did with the Domme or with the chick who fucked the dog, but other times I just fantasize about it and never get around to it.I'm glad I usually don't, but I also usually don't get around to doing what I want, either, like getting back to making tons of money again or doing projects or getting help or enjoying life.

Naturally all the information I gathered on Bridget went into my folder for her, which is relatively small since there's not a lot of porn out there with her in it - I "only" have 715 pictures and movies. Other folders for stars who have done more work, like Taylor Rain for example, contain 10 times as much data - about 7,100 pictures and movies. Just on that one star. In total, I now have about 1,000,000 megabytes of porn - a terabyte. It's filed in about 2,500 folders. Well, partially filed. Half of it needs to be sorted and filed. I guess I'll do it later. That seems to be my motto. Ugh.