Sunday, September 24, 2006

Updates - full circle

I've had a bunch of changes of course, over the past several months. I haven't gotten around to writing, though.



· Got 22 year old
· who turned out to be 20
· Lost her
· Didn't really want her anyhow

· Day after we broke up, my Mexican mistress stopped talking to me
· She's pregnant by some 26 year old Mexican guy
· Who already has 2 other illegitimate kids
· But she just recently called me and apologized.
· It was the hormones.
· We met and went to dinner
· Now more than ever I pity her.

· Wife caught me being friends with two of my girls I don't fuck
· had to fire them.
· Now I miss being friends with them.

· Got new high paying kickback job
· where I don't even have to really work
· but am surrounded by O.C. girls and MILFs who are super hot
· and dumb
· but I'm not fucking any of them
· Or even trying to
· But I feel like I should be.
· Worried I'll have regrets when I'm older that I didn't get more women when I could

· By the way, it's official: I now trust no-one.

· Found a great new healthy hobby
· Actually enjoyed something for the first time in years
· Started attending marriage counseling with wife
· For once, didn't want to chase girls
· Wanted to spend time with my family and my hobby
· Wife destroyed my hobby and all pleasure I took from it

· That was really the last straw
· I really can't get my hopes up any more for enjoying anything
· Now I'm wondering what to do with myself.


· Thought about it for a while
· Decided I'm best off chasing girls again.
· It's what I'm good at.

Back to square one.

The mother of excess is not joy but joylessness.

- Friedrich Nietzsche