Negativeland

I think so much porn is based on misunderstanding, or lack of understanding. People don't understand what pain is, what they're doing to someone else.

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I'm so jacked up right now I don't even really know how I'll get myself out of this. I sleep all day and surf the net all night. The other day I went outside for the first time in like 5 days I think. The colors under the sun were so beautiful, it was amazing.

How the hell am I going to get off this schedule and how am I ever going to even get any self control again? I can't even complete the most simple tasks that are sitting around me waiting to be done. I really think I've worn some ruts in my brain.