Part VIII of the Domme - Salvation

I don't have much time to write because the wife is upstairs. She'll go to sleep soon probably though.

I saw the Domme, and we really broke new ground in our friendship. She opened up in ways she hasn't to other guys, and I actually have learned a lot from her. I am not seeing her as a Domme and she is not seeing me as a sub or a boyfriend. Just friends.

Granted she is not without flaws and major eccentricities. But then, neither am I.


I also reunited with my mistress, who I basically shut out for a month with no explanation. Turned off cell phone, didn't check my messages, etc. I felt really bad about it. At first she said it was no longer the same between us and so on. But, come on. This is me we're talking about. I apologized and did my whole thing, and as I was driving her back to her car, she asked me to go to a motel with her. cha-CHING!! *Done*.

Now she has a cell phone and we're talking more than ever. Christ, what have I done? How the fuck am I supposed to be able to call her or take her calls when I'm home with the wife so much? Man what a hassle and big amount of work this is going to be. Sooner or later it has to end. I really fucked it up.

I also left my favorite hat in the hotel. The same hotel I left my belt in. Son Of A Fucking Bitch.

You know what, though? I'm happier than I have been in a long time. I'm not collecting porn that much any more, the past oh three days. I'll grab like, a gig a day, maybe 500-1000 files. Then again I've been busy. I guess it's only three days, too. Ha ha. I guess that shows me how I'm not that far from the compulsion after all.


Anyway I also believe I saved my marriage yesterday morning and that has me happier than anything. My wife and I finally talked about a bunch of stuff I have never aired over the entire 11 or 12 years we've been together. Not everything, certainly not about porn or dating and/or fucking other girls. But, it was a good conversation. I either had to open up and talk to her right then or we were going to get divorced. And I mean that literally.

But Jesus, now I'm back with my mistress and things are getting more intense with the Domme. I pray these two dalliances don't kill my marriage now that we finally got things back on track.

Anyway, will write more later.