Sunday, May 22, 2005

Fackin' 'ell

Christ. I think I left some porn links in my Recent list, from the Start button, and I think my wife found them. Jesus Christ. Fuck. How could I have been so careless? I have a lead weight in the pit of my stomach. Now I have to wait for god knows how long until she brings it up. I'm going to have to occupy all our time together being busybusybusy, from eating to watching a movie to doing something, just to keep her from asking me about it or talking about it.

Jesus Christ.

The other day I found the website of some particularly famous addiction therapist whose areas of specialty also include sex addiction. I started to compose her an email asking for help but I'm not done yet. Maybe it's time.

1 comment:

beans said...

it might be time if you are this worried about being found out...
maybe she didn't find things though.
either way, is it worth all the stress?

wishing much luck and strength.
peace.